...the fortune teller who read my tarot cards on New Year's Eve also told me, "... you don't sleep well." Oddly enough, on that night I found myself thinking, No, I sleep fine. Last night, as I tossed and turned with anxiety and a multitude of thoughts, I realized that she was right. I don't sleep … Continue reading and breathe, just breathe.
We search for happiness everywhere, but we are like Tolstoy's fabled beggar who spent his life sitting on a pot of gold, under him the whole time. Your treasure--your perfection--is within you already. But to claim it, you must leave the commotion of the mind and abandon the desires of the ego and enter into the … Continue reading silence of the heart.
Ironically enough, Blair Waldorf (Gossip Girl) inspired me to write this post, as well as to connect with myself over this concept. So thank you, Ms. Waldorf and/or Gossip Girl writers for these wise words giving some always-appreciated inspiration to keep living my life and striving to be the best version of myself. At the end of The Witches … Continue reading it’s not about change, it’s about growth. it’s all about growing up and finding out who you really are.
Heartbreak is a fact of life. It happens to the best of us, and in fact, I think it's what forms our best possible self. Did I just lose you? What I'm saying is that- in some ironic fashion- all of the crappy, soul-crippling, unexplainable things that happen to us not only develop our character, but … Continue reading i know it’s not your fault, but i’m a locked door. anytime i’m a mess by someone before. and i wish that i, i could find the key, to unlock all the things you want us to be. let me open up and start again, but there’s a safe around my heart. i don’t know how to let you in.
Since high school, maybe even middle school, I have followed one simple law: If a guy has a girlfriend, STAY AWAY. Be friends but absolutely nothing more. Actually I took it even further and adopted the mindset that if a girl friend or even acquaintance-friend of mine- which was pretty much half of the girls in … Continue reading nice to meet you anyway
I've sat on this thought for a long time. Probably at least 6 years, if not more. But I'm not sure if I have ever voiced it out loud (to myself) or to anyone else. Instead it's an idea that has rolled around in my mind time-and-time-again, but I never knew how best to put those thoughts … Continue reading don’t you think 19 is too young to be played by your dark, twisted games?
Standing on the platform in Evanston waiting for the Purple Line last night after work, a chill came over me. All I wanted was someone to put their arm around me. Is that asking too much? I tell you this because after having that thought, I immediately had another thought: That's not typical for me. … Continue reading drop everything now…meet me in the pouring rain…kiss me on the sidewalk…take the pain away.
A Birthday is the First Day of another 365 Day Journey Around the Sun: Enjoy the Trip! On my twentieth birthday, which happened to be my first official day as an OU student, I woke up in room 232 of Dougan, opened the door, and found myself in a sea of streamers and balloons. It was … Continue reading twenty-seven.