For the past two weeks, I've been telling myself to Just blog it out. That used to always make you feel better. But the truth is, I've stared at this screen many nights trying to do just that and absolutely nothing comes out. There's no image of motivation, or song lyric for inspiration. No title … Continue reading i’m not in kansas, that’s the one thing I know for sure.
When you're twenty-nine years old and only beginning your first relationship, people tend to ask, "Why?" to defend that there is nothing wrong with you. But they might as well save their breath, because there actually is something wrong with you. I mean how is it that you can be mere months away from a milestone … Continue reading all of these lines across my face, tell you the story of who i am.
The following post was written for the blog, Peace & Penguins,and tackles the topic of Love & Anxiety- which are two things that I know little and a lot about, respectively. When Alisha asked me to write a guest blog post on Love & Anxiety for Peace & Penguins, I thought that it would be an easy … Continue reading love & anxiety: two things that i know a little and a lot about, respectively.
The last few days must have been the calm before the storm. Then again, nothing was calm about this week besides the moments with Max and/or a glass of wine. But even with Max by my side last night, with his adorable smile and innocent laugh, my head started spinning. Soon pounding. And when I stood … Continue reading don’t lose who you are in the blur of the stars; seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing, it’s okay not to be okay. sometimes it’s hard to follow your heart; but tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising, there’s nothing wrong with who you are.
...the fortune teller who read my tarot cards on New Year's Eve also told me, "... you don't sleep well." Oddly enough, on that night I found myself thinking, No, I sleep fine. Last night, as I tossed and turned with anxiety and a multitude of thoughts, I realized that she was right. I don't sleep … Continue reading and breathe, just breathe.
I've been trying to write a post- something short & simple- all day. But as you can see, no such post has yet to be written. Here's to hoping this turns out to be something...anything... that takes away this huge lump of anxiety from my stomach, heart, and mind. I'm just going to say it: Today … Continue reading wherever i go, whatever i do. i wonder where i am in my relationship to you. wherever you go, wherever you are. i watch that pretty life play out in pictures from afar.
When people show you who they are, believe them. Maya Angelou If you want the truth, I have no idea what to say but I know I have to say something. I've been distracted all morning and Selena just asked me what was on my mind and, like I told her, "I have no idea." Maybe I … Continue reading begging for the truth, so i’m saying this to you.
Yesterday was a very long day. The alarm went off at 4 am and I think finally shut my bedroom light off around midnight. Those hours may or may not paint a clear-enough picture, but like I said, "It was a very long day." Both a good day and maybe a bad day (at parts); … Continue reading you think you’re lost, but you’re not lost. you’re not alone.
Instead of writing another love letter, I think it's time that I stop hiding behind the pen and 'fess up to what's really going on. I am feeling so down this week. I cannot seem to shake it. Like every other funk I went through the possible diagnosis: Sick? (No.) Period? (No.) Tired? (A little.) Sad? … Continue reading wake up lonely with you by my side, one more night it doesn’t feel. there are movies playing in your eyes, you dream of our fortunes. but you’re wrong. i don’t belong to you.
I really hate saying this...I really do. But when it comes to my blog, I am an open book, and therefore, I'll just say it. This week's vacation has unfortunately not lived up to my expectations which is very disappointing. Since I didn't yet blog during last year's family vacation to Stone Harbor, New Jersey, … Continue reading no expectations, no disappointments.