breathe and trust. silence those fears.

As soon as you trust yourself, you will know how to live. Johann Wolfgang von Goethe   It's interesting how a new guy can make you realize the doubts and insecurities you have.  It may take a few days, call it the new crush honeymoon period if you will, but then all of a sudden … Continue reading breathe and trust. silence those fears.

if you ask me there’s a moment in everybody’s life when you’re helpless; just helpless with hope and trust.

If there was a caption to this photo, I'd like to think it would be the following: {here is my heart. put it back together again if you dare.}  Or maybe: {i'm letting it all go.}  Yeah, that's what it would read.  One of those two.  So, which one is it for you?  For me … Continue reading if you ask me there’s a moment in everybody’s life when you’re helpless; just helpless with hope and trust.

fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.

I'm worried that if I don't write this post tonight that I will cave in(again) tomorrow...which could lead to the day after tomorrow too...and so on.  Therefore I'm going to write this tonight.  Bear with me, okay?  Like these last 11 weeks, it's been a long week.  Seriously, why did I ever leave California?  Sure I … Continue reading fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me.

goodbye, twenty-seven: it’s been quite a lessons learned-kinda year.

No one wants to spend their birthday at work and in a classroom, but this full-time employee and full-time graduate student didn't have a choice.  Memories of my 28th birthday will have to be just that, as well as the abundance of love that I got from friends, co-workers, and family members today.  (Thank you all so … Continue reading goodbye, twenty-seven: it’s been quite a lessons learned-kinda year.

these last two weeks.

They say When it rains, it pours.  Now I'm not sure who 'they' are, but I'm quite certain that 'they' came up with this line to foreshadow these last two weeks in my life.  To put it best, and figuratively, it just hasn't stopped raining.  For the last fourteen days, life has thrown everything imaginable … Continue reading these last two weeks.

it’s not always fireworks and shooting stars; sometimes it’s a simple spark within that whispers, ‘you’re on your way’.

As fireworks lit up the Chicago skyline on Monday night, I laid in my bed falling asleep to the sounds of my city as memories began flashing through my mind.  Alone in my apartment for the first time in ten nights, the booms from the finale reminded me that another Fourth of July had passed- and somehow it was … Continue reading it’s not always fireworks and shooting stars; sometimes it’s a simple spark within that whispers, ‘you’re on your way’.

i know that i am nothing new. there’s so much more than me and you.

I can honestly say that I've never been so impressed by a guy in my life.  That alone makes it obvious that I'm crushing on someone- oh gosh, I even got weak in the knees before seeing him once.  Anyways, he's pretty fantastic.  Better than any fantasy my imaginative mind could concoct.  Certainly one of those guys … Continue reading i know that i am nothing new. there’s so much more than me and you.