After a day stuck in the house battling a cold- or whatever it was- I jumped on the bus in an attempt to give a 3-hour class a try. Within the 5-minute walk to the bus stop, I knew it wasn’t going to happen. (Darn cold.) However, I ended up riding the bus downtown anyways to make sure I really wasn’t up for it. (I still wasn’t. All I wanted was orange juice and my sweats.) After making the decision, I constructed a text to Jenny to tell her that I could meet her for dinner- as long as it included orange juice, and a bit of vodka. But instead of going to Jenny…my crappy phone decided to send it to “Cleveland” instead. I panicked at first, and then sent my “Sorry. Ignore that.” text before the disappointment set in.
Why? Why did the text have to go to him? While I’m disappointed that I technically broke my No Contact past, I guess some good did come out of it. For instance, it made me realize that I was more upset by myself for breaking the pact than I was that he didn’t text me back. So to prevent that from happening again, I deleted those two sent texts as well as his phone number. I just didn’t want that to happen again. Additionally I thought about deleting his FB page, but I don’t think it’s necessary.
Anyways, I wanted to come clean and admit this. I’m not ashamed of it too much, but glad that it won’t happen again. So that’s Day 4 for you. It hasn’t been the best day, but has a Monday ever been? Here’s to hoping that tomorrow is better and leaving me feeling stronger. Here’s to hoping that everyone who needs to move on from a past love feels stronger tomorrow.