Monday, I’ll give you the benefit of the doubt because I know it’s tough to follow this A*MAY*ZING weekend of mine. And work, it’s downright impossible to measure up to two adorable kids, Max (22 mos) and Tommy (6 yrs), beautiful friends, and the fabulous Make-A-Wish Foundation. But still, you could have at least put up some sort of fight today. Instead you had me feeling nothing but emptiness. To tell you the truth, after feeling so alive this weekend, the empty feeling hit me even harder. Maybe that’s not fair to you, but it’s the truth.O
Everybody Needs Inspiration. And in fact sometimes the ones that require inspiration are those that are known for inspiring others. I Need Inspiration. Fortunately I’ve been able to obtain it in the charitable and social aspects of my life; however, as others know (and I’ve shared before on here), it’s been lacking in another part of my life. Today it was drastically apparent and therefore, I found myself fighting to feel anything (but emptiness).
Tonight I came home to find the envelope I’m been waiting on for the past month (if not longer) and I’ve spent these last few hours trying to decide what am I going to do. The one thing I know is where my Inspiration comes from and this opportunity allows me to follow that my passions. However, the reality of this situation is that it may not be the right choice- which is what my instinct is whispering. So here I am, trying to figure out how I’m deemed to spend the next 2 years of my life and truthfully I don’t have a clue. I just want to do what I know I’m meant to do. Do what I love to do… what makes me feel alive.
The unfortunate part is that I know I’ll struggle with that empty feeling again tomorrow. And the next day, and the day after that. But what keeps me going are the opportunities that light me up instead. These moments that Let Me Be “Me”.