Let me first say that I spent my lunch break beginning a post highlighting my thoughts on this Moan-day. To put it best, today was not my day. But I’ve had many days like this to learn that you really do have to experience bad days like this one in order to appreciate the good that life brings our way…and it really does. This evening is one perfect example, and it’s all centered around the beauty that comes in the form of girl friends.
Stef and Rory, two of my saints here in Chicago, saved me from having an emotional breakdown this evening by providing me with quality girl time. Mix in some “Chicagoans are crazy” talk, a Mystic Tan, and some Starbucks, and I seriously felt 1000x better. Thank you so much, ladies!! To make it even better, I had another great conversation with Stef back at my apartment that had me feeling that I’m okay here. I really am.
After Stef left, I immediately received a text from my friend, Carrie, who I called back to discuss her & her husband’s upcoming trip to Chi next weekend. (Cubs’ game, here we come!) Afterwards I called Kristin, who answered the phone, “What are you doing calling? The Bachelorette is on.” I couldn’t stop laughing. And then, she told me that her husband, Jim, was watching it. I lost it completely.
Add in a love Facebook posting from Adriana saying exactly what I needed to hear: A reminder: You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. And then a “meet my new friend who moved to Chicago” message from Jen. Topping of the evening, I just got another message from Alisha reminding me that she is my sister and therefore, always there for me.
Now I sit here, smiling- which I didn’t think was possible a few hours ago- as I think about the other fantastic girl friends that I have in my life. Darlene for her constant love and support. Ruth & Sarah for teaching me that your girl friends always have your back. Libby, Julie & Jen, who remind me that time and distance never changes the bond between best friends. That you have the opportunity to know someone will be your friend forever in just a few seconds, like I knew with Laura.
For me, life has never been about having a boyfriend. Sure, it would be nice but it’s never been a priority. I’ve learned to live life without a boyfriend, to the point where I’m not sure if I know how to live with one. However, a life without girl friends is a life not worth living. My friends are the reason that I am who I am today. No matter how bad my day is, I still find myself remembering how blessed I am to have these girls in my life.
I’ve always had difficulty opening up to others and letting them be there for me. I have a naturally tendency to what to be the one giving and never the one receiving. But I simply need to be the recipient sometimes. I need to rely on others to help me through my rough days. I’ve come a long way to realize this, but now that I have there’s really no turning back. I can only go forward, and as I do so I know that my friendships will only grow stronger.
Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive. ~Anäis Nin